THIS IS FOR YOU DREA!!

Damn Hormones

So today im feeling a little emotional.....All my short lived life i have searched for someone of the opposite sex to love me for me and who feels lucky that i chose to be with him......lets just say i found that.......... 

I CANT DO ANYTHING!!!!!!!!!!

OMG being pregnant is so stressful you cant do anything. It seems like im always doing something wrong....Like i just found out i cant drink SWEET TEA like anybody who knows me knows i live for that ish...The doctor says i cant have it because its to much caffeine in it and it might effect the babys growth...Like WTF?!?!?!?! I wish i knew that BEFORE I  drank like 5 cups a day(being pregnant makes you thirsty lol)..Now im worried..............I HATE THE DOCTOR!

WHITE KIDS DONT HAVE BLACK DOLLS?!?!!?!?!?!?!?!?

I love Christmas but thank GOD its over..To tell the truth it didnt really feel like christmas this year maybe because i missed my fam and friends......Anyways the holiday had me thinking im having a little GIRL and not only does that make me think of  pink feather boas (idk why) but it also makes me think what color dolls will i buy her.....Yes i said color i feel as though when having a child you have to pay attention to the smallest details because they can determine her personality or way of thought...just my opinion....so when i was growing up i had BLACK and WHITE dolls but my cousin only had black dolls.Her mom felt that since she was not WHITE she had no need for those "colored" dolls..In my opinion i think that may make your child a little more closed minded but my friend said that WHITE KIDS dont have BLACK DOLLS.....and honestly i dont know if they do or not..........But any way i have decided that not only will my child own BLACK and WHITE dolls but she will also own SPANISH and ASAIN dolls as well.........

Law and Order

I just finished watching one of my favorite tv shows Law and Order. In this episode this woman brands and sodomizes three men. During the investigation they find out that these men raped her 14 years ago and she became pregnant. to make a long story short she regreted giving her daughter up for adoption. The episode really got to me because i just cant help at the beginning of my pregnancy i wasnt to thrilled.I wanted to have an abortion or give her up for adoption. I know sad but when you think and feel like your not ready these thoughts cross your mind...But some how GOD did everything in his power to make me not be able to get an abortion....its so weird i have never had money issues but i couldnt afford to get one and neither could my bf and me being me i refused to ask fam or friends for money...then i thought about adoption and i couldnt bare to have someone else having MY child it would hurt to much...So i kept it...and now at 5 months pregnant as i feel her move i think how could i ever feel this way about her...DAMN LAW AND ORDER! that ish always gets me lol

Now all i can think about is how will she look

Its a MARLEY!!!!!!

Im having a GIRL!!!!!!!! YAAAAAAAAAAAYYYY for me!... I dont have to name it WILLE KERMIT TURRENTINE  the fourth lol.And boys stink anyway(everybody knows that! ).So since im having a girl I shall name her MINI ME lol jk Her name will be MARLEY MADISON TURRENTINE (thanks my)..I think i would be so depressed if i were having a boy because their so boring and they have the worst clothes selection......here is a pic of my ultra sound..It might be a little hard to see(she looks like an alien lol).

And here is a pic of me!

1a.m!!!!!

Like WTF?1?!?!? PEOPLE! ....So my job schedules me to get off at 1am today.Yes they love me (sarcasm)!....But im wondering do they realize im pregnant ... So I have decided that after the month of January I am no longer working. That might sound crazy to you but have you tried standing all day with 40 pounds of extra weight(yes i said 40)? I didnt think so!....